Real Life

"...in real life."
"I can't wait for my real life to start."
"This is real life..."

Sound familiar?
I HATE. these phrases. I'm just as guilty as the next girl of using them, even when not referring to a movie, which is the only excusable reason for saying this, but I hate them.
I hate them because my life is stalled. Nothing in my life is where I want to be, and very little of it feels like a stepping stone to get there. And, to be honest, it makes me mad, that this is my real life.

You see, I'm an Office Coordinator. Which means I spent 4 years and my parents paid thousands upon thousands of dollars for me to get a degree that I don't use, because any teenager can answer phones, schedule meetings and do what ever else they are told to do. Now, don't read this as: "I hate my job." This isn't that kind of post. I love my coworkers, they are fun people. And the company I work for is great too. I just don't love my job. This isn't what I want to do with my life. I don't enjoy what I do. I'm not looking for a job that "fulfills me" as they say, I know that isn't really the point, but I'd like to be doing something that I care about you know, something that I enjoy at least a little.

I don't have a church home. Which means my social life is basically nonexistent. I'm not a loser...I don't think. It's just that a good portion of my friends are still in school. The other good portion are split up all over the state and country living their new adult lives. I have a roommate, but our schedules are so different that we are rarely both home and awake at the same time. And my friends that do live in Dallas, well we're all over and busy and their isn't a built in social calendar to bring us together like college provided. So I'm looking for a church home (not just for this reason, obviously I love God and want to find a place that is like family to gather in his name, this is just a side motivation), but it takes time and in the meantime, I watch Netflix and eat brownie batter in bed.

I am eager to act. I've talked a bit before about the draw of acting and how I believe that is where God ultimately wants me. I'm in a training program that helps hone my skills, teaches me about the industry, and eventually I will participate in a showcase for agents and managers. So at least I'm going in the right direction, but I'm eager to jump in right now, but I have a full time job. Do you know how hard it is to go to auditions when you don't have any time off built up yet? And then if I am offered a part...I can only film on weekends, unless someone happens to offer me a career making part that will make quitting my day job a realistic thing...I'm not holding my breath.

I could also add that I'm single and have no prospects, which is true, but then again I'm fully aware of the fact that at 22 I am not ready to get married and settle down like so many of my friends are doing. Not to say I wouldn't like to go on a date now and again (just to make me feel like I'm not completely repulsive), but I'm completely okay with waiting on the whole marriage and kids thing.

My point...what was my point?
Live life.
Right, live your life now, but live it in anticipation of the future too. Seize the day! Find joy in the little things! And all the other applicable quotes. But also, you need to be actively seeking ways to advance your life in the direction you want to go. Be patient, as all things happen in God's perfect time.
Even if this season (that's just for you Kristen) of your life isn't your favorite, recognize that this is your life, and it is real.
So enjoy what you can and learn from the crappy bits.